Ah one of them days..
Havent had a day like this in awhile...which would probably mean im healing which is good. Feeling choked up all day, feels like the slightest thing is gonna just set me off...ugh. You know i really think i need to change something...I just dont know how. During a seperation the lonliness, anger, sadness, depression is all bad enough...But to have to see your Ex wife and some random guy walking your dog at 1:30AM?...I just dont think i can stay here anymore. That cut so badly. I was standing outside my building having a smoke the other day..and my puppy and my Ex came out...and Odin just walked right on passed me..not even a sniff. Sigh. He's forgetting about me. I have a buddy who lives on her floor, apparently its a big party spot now.I just really do not understand, it's been like 4 months and im still like just...so confused about the whole thing.I do not talk to her much, but from what i see, and hear from people...she's not the person i once knew. And that makes me extremly sad.. It's a pretty bad feeling to lose someone, but to know you lost them forever...it's really hard to think about.
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hun i know how you feel, when you said \"It\'s a pretty bad feeling to lose someone, but to know you lost them forever...it\'s really hard to think about.\" that hit home...i mean its one thing to split from your spouse...people do it everyday (sad but true) but sometimes they get back together...and months ago (not now) i was holding out hope there might be a chance we would make it work (makes me wonder now why id WANT to make it work with such a asshole..anyhow) but when you get to that point you know there is no looking back..no hope its hard. Wes you will be ok...life is a mess at times...you have alot of people from what i know that support you up there. I do think you should try and get away from where your living just cause she lived in same building and that cant be good you know? but i know its hard to get out on your own 100% without money (hell im still saving to get on my feet) try and get away to your party pad as much as you can...even durning the week..even if its just you up there alone..maybe you need that...no cell...no pc...just you ...guitar ...note pad (to write music on) and pen.....
*HUGS*