AGONY...
Geez...just went through another wave of agony. Pretty difficult I must say (lasted three loooong days)...Could it get any more painful? Courage. I must exercise courage.
I know friends will try their best to help me know they are listening and give me their heartfelt care. It's hard to go through this without the right support... What can also help me go through it? I can think of Humor...I like humor. A lot. I can try balancing it by getting involved in puzzles since I can't volunteer. They help too. Hmmm, a nice long bath with bubbles and candles to shift my mind...to help soothe the aches and this mind pestering me. Why am I going through this again? Oh, OK. I guess they call it evolution. The waves of the Universe trying to get us to lift ourselves into higher stages for our own good. Forgot that.
But the constant thoughts and feelings coming up as I ride this wave... Loneliness, feeling unloved again, nothing matters anymore...Hey, what's my reality? Should I let the wind take me to and fro in this madness?
Ok, so it's the third day now. Seems like I've gone through that energy field again since things are starting to feel a little better...Gosh, what anguish?! You can't prepare for this...the mind I created out of ignorance will fight to the end. That little ego won't die! Should I just as well accept it as it comes? Why am I giving it so much importance anyway? Because of the pain...the pain of letting go...hummm. No graduation day anytime soon...
I'm just glad I'm feeling better...
I know friends will try their best to help me know they are listening and give me their heartfelt care. It's hard to go through this without the right support... What can also help me go through it? I can think of Humor...I like humor. A lot. I can try balancing it by getting involved in puzzles since I can't volunteer. They help too. Hmmm, a nice long bath with bubbles and candles to shift my mind...to help soothe the aches and this mind pestering me. Why am I going through this again? Oh, OK. I guess they call it evolution. The waves of the Universe trying to get us to lift ourselves into higher stages for our own good. Forgot that.
But the constant thoughts and feelings coming up as I ride this wave... Loneliness, feeling unloved again, nothing matters anymore...Hey, what's my reality? Should I let the wind take me to and fro in this madness?
Ok, so it's the third day now. Seems like I've gone through that energy field again since things are starting to feel a little better...Gosh, what anguish?! You can't prepare for this...the mind I created out of ignorance will fight to the end. That little ego won't die! Should I just as well accept it as it comes? Why am I giving it so much importance anyway? Because of the pain...the pain of letting go...hummm. No graduation day anytime soon...
I'm just glad I'm feeling better...
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Glad you are feeling better. I am interested in this idea of yours, that \"the waves of the universe try to get us to lift ourselves into higher stages for our own good\". I practice Kundalini yoga, and they say it can be difficult for those who have unresolved issues that are stored in our energy centers (chakras). I have been practicing it for 2 years and I have moments of bliss, but more emotional turmoil than I have ever experienced. It is also referred to as \"the dark night of the soul \" But once you break through, there is peace on the other side. I hope this is the case.
I also appreciate your sense of humor...
Thank you Sadie. Yes, when we are separate from our true selves we feel anguish. Peace and balance is a daily thing. Those issues still lodged up inside create emotional havoc. Somehow we need to brake through and create our daily reality from the right perspective. Love