Afternoon 12/27/2013
I was able to do a light workout of some pushups and situps. The chronic pain was there but no worse for the workout and mentally I feel a light workout can help my mood slightly.
The chronic pain had me pretty down in the dumps most of the day today. Not so much depressed but more sad and frustrated as it's another day without relief.
I skipped the pain meds this morning and to be honest they barely take the edge off so unless I'm over the top in pain I may just skip the pain meds for tonight.
Mentally I haven't been too bad today except for the frustration of chronic pain. My mom took me to the store and I helped her with some stuff. I hate that my stupid mental/physical issues make her so sad. Her support is the only thing that gets me through the day most days.
I have to get up early tomorrow. My mom has to take me home as they are calling for bad weather and tomorrow is going to be nice. I don't want her driving in bad weather because I'm a goofball. It's bad enough she has to drive me at all.
Next week I need to stand on my own two feet. I have a box of medicine that I have to pick up at the post office. I go back to work Thursday. I did some work yesterday in-order to not be totally backlogged.
The week after I have to see the specialist doc. I pray he has some alternate treatment ideas but I fear it will be the same old same old which means more suffering without relief.
I know my journal looks like a broken record but I have to mind dump these thoughts and feelings else I will go mad!
When I get home I'm going to spend some time trying to picture what it will be like to be mentally normal and pain free. Maybe if I can see it one day it will happen.
Until that day comes I will suffer with as much patience as I can muster. God just give me the strength to endure until the time you see fit to release me from my trials.
The chronic pain had me pretty down in the dumps most of the day today. Not so much depressed but more sad and frustrated as it's another day without relief.
I skipped the pain meds this morning and to be honest they barely take the edge off so unless I'm over the top in pain I may just skip the pain meds for tonight.
Mentally I haven't been too bad today except for the frustration of chronic pain. My mom took me to the store and I helped her with some stuff. I hate that my stupid mental/physical issues make her so sad. Her support is the only thing that gets me through the day most days.
I have to get up early tomorrow. My mom has to take me home as they are calling for bad weather and tomorrow is going to be nice. I don't want her driving in bad weather because I'm a goofball. It's bad enough she has to drive me at all.
Next week I need to stand on my own two feet. I have a box of medicine that I have to pick up at the post office. I go back to work Thursday. I did some work yesterday in-order to not be totally backlogged.
The week after I have to see the specialist doc. I pray he has some alternate treatment ideas but I fear it will be the same old same old which means more suffering without relief.
I know my journal looks like a broken record but I have to mind dump these thoughts and feelings else I will go mad!
When I get home I'm going to spend some time trying to picture what it will be like to be mentally normal and pain free. Maybe if I can see it one day it will happen.
Until that day comes I will suffer with as much patience as I can muster. God just give me the strength to endure until the time you see fit to release me from my trials.
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