After The Darkness Lifts
August 28,2008 I know that it has been ages since I have last written. I have gone through so much and really hve come full circle through it all. I was so sick and then depressed when I lost my job to this. I was being treated for something I did not have and it alone was making me sicker on all the meds. they had me on. When I finally decided to fight and call my doctor on what he was doing I finally began to come out of the darkness. Not only was I being treated for the wrong thinh I was on so much medicine that it was literally toxifying my sytem. I went 2 weeks straight with out sleeping and then went to see him and he prescribed me a tranquilizer. I refused to be that druged up. I started to pray and leave it in the Lords hands which I should of done in the first place. I began taking myself off the med and started to sleep better and feel better. I know that I need to put God first and he will bless me for that. I am being treated for my Lymes now and are starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I have a long way to go but with God I am going to make it! My whole family has it and are all on new medicines and are finally starting to heal. Even though it will take a long time to get better. I am glad I met some new friends here too. I hope I can help others who are going what I have already been through. It can be so lonely and depressing going through this disease. It is not a forgiving one and is so complex it ain't funny. I was hurting when school started and I found myself starting to get depressed but I knew the Lord was with me and I am not letting him win this time. Even though this took my job it is not going to take my joy anymore. I did find out that I have the coinfection Earlichia and so does my husband and daughter.Well going to go for now. I hope this made sense sometimes I can go off on a tangit. Will be back soon. slrow
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