After Deep Breaths and Thoughts...

I was too hard on myself over NC. I know that. Actually after reading soooo many posts of evil ex spouses Im gonna consider myself fortunate she actually cares. As long as I come to terms in my head that we are finished and dont let false hope creep in I think Im gonna be ok. Its going to be a challenge but I re-read that site Butterfly posted and find so much comfort in that site, the author really nailed it. Unless your ex comes to you and specifically states they want to reconcile, everything else is just chatter. I just have to remember that, and I would like to stay at least civil with her because we did have 24 years together and raised 2 great kids. Thats a lot of years to just end up bitter. I did stick around yesterday and help load up some stuff she wanted from my moms place, and we had a nice chat. I realized I care very much about her, but I dont think im in love with her anymore. It still hurt a bit when she left, but not as much. And thats a good thing in my book..moving forward.