After Christmas
Well Christmas day was a great day. I have company staying with me for 2 weeks. A family from here in the park. They gave me a "How to Knit" kit, which is fantastic because I really want to learn how to knit. Then my son is at his Dad's for Christmas he came over Christmas Eve and had a gift for me. I asked if I could open it on Christmas Day as it was the only gift from any of my family that I received and I wanted to open it in front of my son on Christmas Day. He said okay and I told him I would call me on Christmas Day from Dorothy's house next door to his father's house so he could come over while I opened it. It was a new digital camera. When I visited him in New Jersey during Thanksgiving he noticed my camera was not working right. I cried with happiness. It was so wonderful. Then Dorothy who is 81 and Mabel 92 went with me driving to a Chinese buffet for dinner. Afterward I took them to see some Christmas lights. So it was a great day.
My daughter refused to see me or call me. I left her a message on her answering machine and sent a Christmas Stocking with a card in it too her when I gave my son his. But there has been no comment. My son has not called since then. I just can't take it. This is killing me. I just want to cry.Everyone else is so nice too me. Another friend bought me a diamond and emerald pendant and matching earrings. Another gave me a t-shirt and necklace to match. I had no money to buy actual gifts so I went to the dollar store and got some stockings and filled them with candies and cookies that Jake made with me. I feel like such a scum bucket because I didn't get gifts for any of them. I never heard from my sister or father, so they either died or just don't want to have anything to do with me. I guess I am better off in a mental hospital because then no one could contact me. I got not one Christmas card. Granted I didn't send any, but I was prepared to send cards to any one that sent one to me. I don't have all my addresses. I just wasn't prepared when I left my husband. I thought I would be able to get my things. But now they are all gone. I cry and die, but I just have to accept it. I lost all my personal possessions when my husband threw me out.
I just miss my family. My kids, my husband, the cats. All of it.
My daughter refused to see me or call me. I left her a message on her answering machine and sent a Christmas Stocking with a card in it too her when I gave my son his. But there has been no comment. My son has not called since then. I just can't take it. This is killing me. I just want to cry.Everyone else is so nice too me. Another friend bought me a diamond and emerald pendant and matching earrings. Another gave me a t-shirt and necklace to match. I had no money to buy actual gifts so I went to the dollar store and got some stockings and filled them with candies and cookies that Jake made with me. I feel like such a scum bucket because I didn't get gifts for any of them. I never heard from my sister or father, so they either died or just don't want to have anything to do with me. I guess I am better off in a mental hospital because then no one could contact me. I got not one Christmas card. Granted I didn't send any, but I was prepared to send cards to any one that sent one to me. I don't have all my addresses. I just wasn't prepared when I left my husband. I thought I would be able to get my things. But now they are all gone. I cry and die, but I just have to accept it. I lost all my personal possessions when my husband threw me out.
I just miss my family. My kids, my husband, the cats. All of it.
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