AF must be coming

Today started with a lot of stress. I am helping out with a retirment for next week and one of the organizer doesn't seem to listen. I put together a photo book from Costco of pictures of our retiree however I recieved the pictures last week and the book might be in for Friday...hopefully Friday. The organizer person, kept hounding me saying that she wants everyone in the school to sign the book before the party...well if the party is Wednesday next week adn it will not be in until Friday...I am not going to hunt down 100 people to sign it.Then there was a beautiful retirement party today...so relaxed and so very lovely. His family was present and you could see the pride in his face as he smiled at his grown children. It was so very touching. I hope that my children will be like his...then I got home to another problem with the photobook...which is hopefully sorted out. But what told me that AF was happening was when I saw an email message about Carlie's 3rd birthday (our Goddaughter). I though that her mother was responding back to me about Carlie's gift, however it turned out to be one of the guests. He happened to be the guy I dated before DH...he dumped me three months before announcing his engagment to another women and marrying her two month later (she is a lovely person...he is just a jerk...not really but it helps to think that way). She just gave birth to their second son...what I do not understand is why I recieved the message? I feel so sad and upset and angry...I just want to cry but I know it will not accomplish anything. He obviously does not know about my miscarriage because he does have some tact. THis is such a emotionally charged month, that I am reacting to things that I wouldn't normally do. If it does come, I am going to have a stiff drink!