Advice???
ok. i guess im taking a poll here. see, while my daughter is a very happy baby, and not bad at all as far as babies go... at the same time she is very needy. she always has to be near you, wants you to play with her, and be part of what you are doing. if you are holding her she is happy. but i never get anything done!! and now if i put her down she cries. people tell me to just let her cry. but i dont know. i have mixed feelings. she is still so young. i try to walk away a bit, but i feel awful cause i want her to trust me. today she is having bad dreams. i just know she is. she keeps waking up screaming, and that is not like her. i want her to know im there for her. i dont want her to feel alone. so as soon as she goes back to sleep i put her back down. but in general i dont know what to do really. i dont want this to escalate to a problem later with her, but i dont want to just leave her there crying either. she dont like the swing.... or mobiles.... or anything, unless you are right there. even car rides are a bit difficult at times. ok... so cyber family. what do i do? and lol. the people who tell me to let her cry, pick her up too.... on another note. everything else is pretty ok. having alot of erratic emotions and having trouble getting hold of my brain to organize any thoughts. i guess thats normal though. i dont know though. it scares me a bit with me. i dont want to be the way i was before, EVER. im much happier now. looking back i thought it was just gambling i was out of control with. but really it was everything. my whole life. im so lucky to be where i am now, and not there. the only complaint i have right now is my living arrangements. and even that isnt so bad. and im stressed with new baby and all, but im having fun too. and i realized i have fun with this guy in my life. thats nice. im not analyzing everything. sometimes mybrain tries to... but really im not. i have fun with him. and he is the first person i ever been with that i dont worry will tell me that i will go to hell when i die because i dont believe in the bible. he makes me laugh. and i appreciate that. and he deals with my crazy times. he came over and took the baby the other day, so that i could get some stuff done. he watched her for a couple hours so i could go out with a friend. and im a little jealous cause she slept the whole night through after he had put her to sleep. the weight thing is starting to bother me less. on him anyway. im in a hurry to get well enough to do things. i went on a walk today. will post some pictures. im up all night it seems today. cant sleep.
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