Addition to the family
Stevan,
I know you probably think I am crazy now for sure and are probably a little mad at me but I put money down on an English Bulldog puppy today, he is 4 weeks old and the cutest darn thing you ever did see. He is mostly white with little black markings, he has a patch of black over his right eye and some black patches and little black dots on his backside and he has quite a smushed up face. I hope it was a good decision for me as I think I need something new in my life right now and I always wanted one, you know that. I think it will be good for Ollie to have a playmate/buddy also.
So today was a bit better for me than the last few days. They were very hard to get through and I had to do a lot of thinking about my and our futures. I am so tired of being so sad all the time and hurting all the time, I need to start moving forward or just moving. I know you know we love and miss you so much and I do believe that you can feel it wherever you are. I just wish that I could get some kind of sign from you that you are getting all the messages and talks I have had with you. I will never stop loving you or missing you I hope you know that also. it is just that I can't take all this sadness and moping around in a state of pure sadness, I have to try to get into a better place than where I am now, I will start a grief support meeting Monday nights for 8 weeks and hope this will help me in ways I don't see yet. You will always be in my heart and mind, I will never forget you or love you any less. The only thing that I really want and need is for you to come home and that can't happen so I have to learn to deal with that. I hope you understand all this Stevan and will be OK with me trying to go on without you here.
I miss you holding me, talking to you, snuggling with you, tickling your back, laying next to you, just everything about you. It will never be the same without you.
I love you with all my heart Stevan and will till the day I pass and see you again.
Miss you more today than Yesterday
LOVE YOU MY DEAR STEVAN, MY STEVIE BOY
ALWAYS & ALWAYS
FOREVER & EVER
LAUR
I know you probably think I am crazy now for sure and are probably a little mad at me but I put money down on an English Bulldog puppy today, he is 4 weeks old and the cutest darn thing you ever did see. He is mostly white with little black markings, he has a patch of black over his right eye and some black patches and little black dots on his backside and he has quite a smushed up face. I hope it was a good decision for me as I think I need something new in my life right now and I always wanted one, you know that. I think it will be good for Ollie to have a playmate/buddy also.
So today was a bit better for me than the last few days. They were very hard to get through and I had to do a lot of thinking about my and our futures. I am so tired of being so sad all the time and hurting all the time, I need to start moving forward or just moving. I know you know we love and miss you so much and I do believe that you can feel it wherever you are. I just wish that I could get some kind of sign from you that you are getting all the messages and talks I have had with you. I will never stop loving you or missing you I hope you know that also. it is just that I can't take all this sadness and moping around in a state of pure sadness, I have to try to get into a better place than where I am now, I will start a grief support meeting Monday nights for 8 weeks and hope this will help me in ways I don't see yet. You will always be in my heart and mind, I will never forget you or love you any less. The only thing that I really want and need is for you to come home and that can't happen so I have to learn to deal with that. I hope you understand all this Stevan and will be OK with me trying to go on without you here.
I miss you holding me, talking to you, snuggling with you, tickling your back, laying next to you, just everything about you. It will never be the same without you.
I love you with all my heart Stevan and will till the day I pass and see you again.
Miss you more today than Yesterday
LOVE YOU MY DEAR STEVAN, MY STEVIE BOY
ALWAYS & ALWAYS
FOREVER & EVER
LAUR
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What a beautiful letter to your husband. I hope that you know he is will always be with you. I also glad that you got a dog. It will be keep you company. Sometimes we have to do things for ourselves hugs millrb
I , too, am getting a puppy! My daughter and I are eagerly awaiting the birth of our goldendoodle, Moose! We miss Ronnie so very much and both need some tone to love and be loved by. Ronnie would have been mad at us, but he would have fallen in love with Moose once he met him! I am so sad and lonely without my Ronnie! I miss the same things you miss which is everything. It is so hard to go on knowing and feeling that half of your heart is missing! I try to stay busy and have also signed up for a grief support group! I think we are doing all we can do!