addiction

here i go again with plans to get some of the white stuff AGAIN.  The perc habit is starting to get out of control and i am having a really hard time right now.  Even thinking about JUMPING off that wagon and having a nice cocktail.  I gotta remember tho that it's been 2 years and 10 months since I've consumed any alcohol.  Why is it that we sometimes replace one addiction for another.  AAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!  having a tough time right now.