active participant

I got a call this morning about a temp job in a city 2 hrs away. This is a small city that I lived in for 10 years.I put a listing on a message board for temp. work anywhere in the states for a change of scenery and this is what happened. It would be an easy thing to do because I could stay with a friend and bring my dog.I have to say I was looking for more exotic but this could work well also. I would get to spend time with the folks I got sober with. That would be great.I wanted to go back and visit Gregs grave and his father. He was my best friend my first 4 yrs of sobriety. He took his life last year after struggling for yrs with OCD. I got a call3 mo. ago about it but he did it 6 mo. ago.Anyway my ppoint is I want to be very conscious in my life to do things that can create growth and change.It will happen on its own but I would like to facilitate some of it instead of just going on with daily life and waiting that hoping things will change in a way that I desire.I do have fear of change which is all more the reaason to do it.So in my head it sceams FEAR FEAR FEAR but I consciously say so what do it anyway. Be an active participant in your own life. There is my day.