About to try this sober thing again

In a nut shell, I'm tiered ....tiered of hangovers, ill feeling lethargy lack of motivation, getting up so hung over you don't even make yourself up just muddling through your day to start to feel better in the afternoon only to start the cycle back in the eve. Tiered of wasting money and setting a bad example for my kids.Tired of wasting my life because I know this is not God's plan for me tired of not knowing my worth and destroying myself. I can be so much more and I will be if I just stop. (I know its easier said than done, but I can do all thing through Christ, so I pray for his help and trust that one day I will be free from this