About 30 weeks along now :-)

I go to my 30 week appointment tomorrow. Im excited and nervous.  I am ready physically to have my little angel but Im so scared of how Im going to juggle a 1 year old and a newborn.  I know there will be plenty of love to go around and when the time comes God will give me the strength but right now Im so tired and its hard to imagine.
 
Aiden alone keeps me so so busy and Im scared to death that at some point Aiden or (Parker) will have a need that mommy cant meet because there is only one of me.  It breaks my heart to think that Parker might not get the same amount of attention that Aiden did as a newborn and that Aiden will lose the attention that he is used to getting!
 
I realize there are people out there with 2 children doing a wonderful job, its just a lot for me to think about.
 
My husband works out of town all week and I am left to take care of the babies and work outside the home 30 hours per week.  I cant even imagine what my nights and mornings will be like??!! I know I can do it I just get worried about how well I will be able to do it!
 
Other than all that stress life is good.  Aiden is sleeping in his crib now,usually only waking one time at night.... this is really good compared to a month ago. We co-slept for the first year and it made the breastfeeding easier to continue.
 
I cant wait to meet Parker Robert... I know our home will be so full of love with another sweet boy around! I just cant believe I will be holding another baby in 10 weeks or less!  My life has changed so drastically in the past 2 years it is unbelieveable!
 
Well in closing I just ask God to keep watching over my babies, my husband, my family, help me to be the best mother and wife that I can be, and to give me some patience and help me handle my stress and not take it out on the people I love!
 
 
 

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Congrats! I did not even realize...or forgot? that u were preggo! u will be just fine! u r a great mom!