Abother weekend
So another weekend has come and gone, I beg for the weekends to come because I don't want to be at work yet when they come I can't hold on to it tightly enough, I don't go anywhere except to the store for misc items.....I just don't feel like going anywhere or being with anyone. I just want to stay in my house....... it feels safe. Back to work for another week grrrrrrrrrr.... I just hate it, I feel like things will never get better yet I know they will.....I am just not ready to be around anymore people then I absolutely have to be......... I went to the grocery store yesterday and ran into an old friend of ours from many years back..........the first thing out of his mouth.....you know How's Tom......... I just fell to pieces, people just don't want ot be around you when your like this, and thats fair because I really don't want to be around them either.
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i feel the same way. i should be grateful that i have a job but when i\'m there i just feel robotic. then i get home and all i do is get into bed with the tv on and my laptop literally on my lap. i take breaks to take my little dog out and that\'s about it. it\'s not that i want to be fine, i only ask that some of this pain go away. my marriage was good but if truth be told, my husband was very selfish of and with me. he was jealous of everyone. so i was always so sheltered by him now i don\'t know how to go out by myself. i go to the grocery store and i\'m such a rush -- just like when he was sick. i then try to remember that i don\'t have to rush, but i still rush back to the house and never buy anything that i might enjoy eating. i was to feel good one day -- that\'s all.