Abort or not?

My husband told me today to abort again. I don't want to. But if said it's better for me. Yeah sure! Cuz he knows what's better for me! AFTER 6 YEARS GOING THROU EVERYTHING POSSIBLE TO GET PREGNANT HE TELLS AND EVEN FORCES ME TO ABORT? How dare he? How can he be so cold. Just cuz his slut doesn't want to deal with his child and me after divorce. I feel so empty. I want this child! It's my baby! I am so afraid he is going to hurt me :'(  I am so frustrated. You all know the feeling of failing each time the pregnancy test is negative. Now finally. And now my husband for 11 years leaves me. 5 years we tried naturally to get pregnant. 6 years we got throu everything possible. And now that. I can't believe that. I just cry. But it feels good writing it all down and hoping for an advice. Or some nice words. God bless you all.