Abjure

One of my characteristics of my personality is being controlling. I need order in my life. When things are concrete and certain there is reason and a goal to obtain. If things are left for free will, then there is too much room for mistakes and chaos. To control people or situations is as impossible of a defeat as being perfect but, this is embedded in my personality. Traits that I sometimes dislike and so do others. People are intimidated by this domineering power. No one likes to be told what to do or told that they are doing something wrong. I have a tendency to demand this on others, a lot.
I guess this is where my profile name comes from. To avoid this is not possible (lol abjured it whichever definition you would like in this situation suits this lol). To ignore it is denying who I really am. Can I change my ways? Sure I could but, this would mean that I would have to let go, and be free. Chained to this word and I have thrown away the key. I will carry the burden of this heavy weight. I will suffer my fate. I will own it and abjure.
I am not at all surprised that I seclude myself from others and I don’t question why people seem to avoid my company. I will have to learn to be a LEADER instead of a boss. Work together for happiness, instead of demanding it.