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OK . TODAY NOT GOOD!I FELL OUT WITH PAUL. HE IS SO CHILDISH. WE ARE SUPPOSE TO BE SAVING FOR OUR FLAT RIGHT! WELL WE GETTING NO WHERE HE KEEPS COMING UP WITH STUPID THINGS TO WASTE OUR MONEY ON! ALSO HE HAD £111.00 IN THE BANK THE OTHER DAY HE TOOK £40 OUT TO PUT IN OUR SAVINGS AND MENTIONED YESTERDAY THAT HE ONLY HAD A £1.00 IN HIS POCKET AND MAYBE £10 IN THE BANK.  SO I SAID WHERE HAS IT GONE. HE DOESNT KNOW!!   SO I SCREAMED OUT LOUD AND WALKED IN THE OTHER ROOM. WE NOT SPOKEN PROPERLY SINCE THEN I FEEL LIKE WE ARE GOING DOWN HILL AT THE MOMENT COZ ALSO HE HASNT BEEN PHYSICAL WITH ME IN ANYWAY IN THE PAST WEEK.  IM SEXUALLY FRUSTRATED!! MY VIBRO HAS BECOME MY BEST FRIEND. IF I DIDNT HAVE THAT I DREAD TO THINK WHAT I MIGT HAVE DONE. I DONT LIKE CHEATING BUT A GIRL HAS NEEDS AND IM NOT GETTING MY NEEDS SEEN TOO.  MAYBE WE ARE DRIFTING APART.  MAYBE HE ACTING LIKE THIS COZ HE DOESNT WANT TO BE WITH ME AND GET A PLACE TOGETHER.IF SO WHY ASK ME TO BLEADY MARRY HIM IN APRIL NOW ACTING LIKE THIS. AAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!