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oh and I have been glue free for 7 days now..except last night I opened a thing of twink and saw some aliens or soemthing..and Ive been using petrol except ifI use to much it makes me spew which I dont like. petrol is amazing..in one second the whole world is clarified. But um..iunno what I'll tell Rick. I dont feel sane anymore..Everything talks to me in rythms..like for example the pates on the trolley were banging when I pushed the trolley they talked to me saying dont do glue. but its been slipping up andI know that its my mind but I wish it woudnt talk to its self. it makes me so mad cos I cant stop it. and now im going mad cos Im going mad thinking about sniffing something. argh cant win anyway.
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I have had some of the same experiences. Seeing patterns and rhythms in everything. Even in life itself. But in the long run you never learn anything and it is not helpfulf to you in anyway. My addiction to inhalents where I thought to the experiences and the feelings I had while I was high. However I have found that that is not the case and even at my age it doesnt go away just because you want it to. I am praying for you and hope you are doing well. I love your screen name it is beautiful as I am sure you are. If you want to talk please feel free to e-mail me I check this every day as I have found the human contact in recovery is what kept me clean for 5 years. God bless you and keep you well.