A years gone by...

Its been a year since my mom has past and I still can't believe she's gone. I used to call her every morning on my way to work because that was the best time to catch her since I lived cross country. The first few months after I found myself starting to call and realize that shes not going to answer. Well to this day I still do it! Its like my mind can't believe that she's gone. I try to talk to my sister but she doesn't like talking to me. I call my dad but find that we don't have much to say. I don't like to bother my 2nd mom because she is trying to move on with her life and get past this sad part. I'm out here on the west coast with no family but my gf's and all they do is bug. It's all about them and they don't realize maybe I want my family around and if they can't be around then I would rather be alone. I guess thats all the venting for now. Until the next time I have a breakdown...goodnight.