A well needed cry

Talked 2 hrs on the phone with my cousin (well not blood cousin shes married to my blood cousin & really theyve been married for that long that that doesnt matter) we talked laughed cried she says she wishes that we lived closer to each other than we do (we live 8+ hrs from each other) because she knows that my social circle isnt big and times like this she wishes that they could be here for us to help me get through this....  I mean I know I may sound like a big baby & stressing for no reason but I cant help it...  He's all I got...,.,,.  Although Ive tried to have friends but some of them are too busy with their lives careers and kids which I on the other hand dont work anymore or have kids & feel as if we dont have anything in common...  So I did get to talk to him this afternoon hes still 50/50 on his condition...  I try to have my faith in GOD & pray....  So I just thank all of you on here for listening/reading my posts in the groups or here in my journal posts & thank you all for your kind loving encouraging words.....