A warmer winters day
Oh Roger AS I look upon the sunshining down on the arena I pray it melts all the snow enough to stop the icy stuff. I find the little things like that make me aware I am in over my physical head. You would be here to help me - and while I have a good time doing alot of this out door stuff I miss not having someone to be there to do with.
I have decided to sell the snowmobiles, I know I could have fun but realize without someone by my side and doing it alone is not the same. Asking or begging even to have friends include me just now ruins it for me. I will miss them but its time to move on.
Lisa said the job market is not the best in Boise either but its so many larger cities there compared to here so its still better. I pray I can get moved this year sooner the better.
I am worried about selling this place, I only hope GOD sees its for the best: emotionally, physically and financially. I will miss not having George - hes been a good neighbor to help if and when he can. Moving to a new place I worry I won't have a neighbor to turn to for some things like that, Scott says I will not doubt find other friends to help move the hay, fix the post, etc.... I hope so....
But I do so want to get to work but so unsure how to make it happen in this economic climate. I pray you and all the Angels can change things for all of us here on earth that are struggling. Please take our Prayers to GOD for us.
I am lonely without you but better. I am stronger knowing I CAN DO alot of things.
I still sit and say "I can't believe you died" I hope it was quick like they said. I am better about thinking of you without gut wrenching pain, and often think of things like this or something we did together - it feels good to feel the good memories without so much sadness. I am still sad & probably will be for quite some time you left way too early for what our lives were planned for. I am so unsure of what my life is to be now....
I have decided to sell the snowmobiles, I know I could have fun but realize without someone by my side and doing it alone is not the same. Asking or begging even to have friends include me just now ruins it for me. I will miss them but its time to move on.
Lisa said the job market is not the best in Boise either but its so many larger cities there compared to here so its still better. I pray I can get moved this year sooner the better.
I am worried about selling this place, I only hope GOD sees its for the best: emotionally, physically and financially. I will miss not having George - hes been a good neighbor to help if and when he can. Moving to a new place I worry I won't have a neighbor to turn to for some things like that, Scott says I will not doubt find other friends to help move the hay, fix the post, etc.... I hope so....
But I do so want to get to work but so unsure how to make it happen in this economic climate. I pray you and all the Angels can change things for all of us here on earth that are struggling. Please take our Prayers to GOD for us.
I am lonely without you but better. I am stronger knowing I CAN DO alot of things.
I still sit and say "I can't believe you died" I hope it was quick like they said. I am better about thinking of you without gut wrenching pain, and often think of things like this or something we did together - it feels good to feel the good memories without so much sadness. I am still sad & probably will be for quite some time you left way too early for what our lives were planned for. I am so unsure of what my life is to be now....
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I think our loved ones that have died do help us----I know many times I would say----Stan, can\'t you see we need your help here? I hope all of the things you need to do in the future will fall into place for you, with job, home---whatever you need. Your journal post touches my heart, Sal
I hear you so clearly! Please stay in touch. I have a son who lives in Boise and go fairly often to visit. It would be great to connect. Take care, and trust! Hugs, Lindanne
I still say the same thing to myself. I can\'t believe he died. It sounds like you are making some progress in moving forward, maybe a little bit of healing too, which is wonderful. Every little bit helps. Hugs, Patti