A trip to

Ive tried so hard to make things workI am always last always hurtNo one wants me no one caresI am just stuck here thinking "Wish I was there"
Wish you knew just how I feltwish I could still make your heart melt Wish I had spoke clearly Maybe you would know I love you dearlyBut now we shall go our separate waysI feel like love is a big shamI could have been the best damn manI could have made you SO happyNow sweetheart you have love a newI hope like a queen he treats youBecause a king I know I am I've never know a better man I  hope that you find someone goodWho treats you just the way he shouldMakes you always feel so goodI will be always alone And maybe just take my long trip homeGoodbye my love goodbye my friendsWe shall never speak again An angel reaches out its handI hold it tight as we take flight We head to the sky and as we arriveIm greeted by an amazing faceIndescribable by words Not a man nor a girlMore wise and  amazing than any in the worldIts large white wings and stunning smile It says "Welcome now my lovely child" Welcome now to your new life!! Now that you are here my son, You can no longer feel love,  all emotions of of the earth Remain there in there place You have been a disgrace I quickly stop and glance aroundWhat was white and fluffy cloudsIts fire high an of sulfur smellsSo now I settle into hell,At least my heart will bleed no moreI wont curl up on floor"Your wrong my son, your suffering has just begun I have some big plans for you"     I beg and plead he whips  I bleed..."At least this is better than my "Real life"