A small amount of hope.

So, I finally got a bit of my insurance junk taken care of.  Had a doctor's appointment yesterday.  Good and bad news. The good news is they are almost certain what the problem is with my sleep.  And now for the bad news. My tonsils are the size of golf balls (and I'm not even sick).  They're going to have to remove them, which means I'll have to take like a week off work(which I can't afford).   Apparently my tontils are so big, they're blocking my throat while I sleep and I'm not getting enough oxygen.   So... they're setting me up with a specialist.  They also put me on a medication called Paroxetine.  Never heard of it, but it's supposed to help with anxiety.  I hate being on pills, but I'm fairly desperate at this point.  Hoping all of this gets resolved quickly.  I really need a positive change in my life.  These sleeping problems have made me depressed over the past few weeks, and I hate feeling this way.  I used to have so much energy all the time.  I miss that.  I want to be who I was before.  I used to love that person.  Wish me luck, friends.  I need it.  I'll update as necessary.  Hope you all are doing well.  You all deserve it.