A quick update...

Nesting.   Must be related to hormones, lol, because I seem to do it every Full Moon.
So after snowshoeing on Sunday (which btw, was INCREDIBLE and photos I'm posting shortly don't do it justice), I started cleaning my office.   I think I've mentioned before that my basement is a dungeon - partial walls in the main room, dark and old looking in the 2 others (my gym and my office).   In my office, I had this table with my VERY OLD computer on it.  It's one of those 1960 tables with drop leafs to stretch it out.   Sturdy, but half plastic and UGLY.   I've been thinking about painting it white, but the wall where it sits is white cement blocks, so everytime I think about it, I then think Naaaa....
In my main room where I have my "art studio", I had an old 1960's desk center.   I bought it last summer at a rummage sale for $5 because the guy who owned it HATED it.   He couldn't figure out how to put all the cabinets/shelves together.   I could see right away what the problem was, pictured it too painted a different color, and just stuck it in a corner in the main room....
As I went to start cleaning Sunday, BAM!   It hit me that that desk would look GREAT in my office AND had all the space I needed to hide my clutter, which would allow me to hang my artwork on my walls... And so I began moving things around.... turns out that "new" desk had an even better little secret that I missed.... the keyboard tray has a drawer that pulls out with it making a HUGE space for spreading out files, etc.   REALLY cool!  
So I've got my office as good as it gets until I stop running around and take the time to paint it (2 walls will be peach, 2 walls will be white, white trim, white framed art work)... and as I began to "organize" my life a little more, I found a box I had labeled "Business Notes"... so yesterday, I took that box to my job to sort through when things were quiet, tossed out the garbage, kept what might be pertinent to my future business plans....
And it turned out that this was notes from my past.... oh the 20's!   I had so many unrealistic dreams in my 20's... right after we moved out here, the X and I decided that we were ready to own our own business... actually went so far as to go to the bank to apply for a loan to purchase a video store.  I worked hard on the information, put together a COMPLETE business plan, and we walked into the bank.... and the X dropped a bombshell and told the BANKER (not me, of course...) that our numbers were all wrong... yeah, one of those signs that something was really wrong with our marriage but I refused to notice....
Anyways, looking through this again, I not only saw now naive I was, but also saw where my strengths were, and where I've grown.   I even still have the denial letter from the bank that said how it was one of the best business plans he'd ever seen and that if I had more of a down payment he would approve the loan....
So looking at this and where I am now, I see where I am going... but the memory of the X and my own stupidity put me in a bad mood, so I put it all back in the box, more organized, until my anger passes and I can look at it again to get started with my NEW business plan.
Starting to move forward again!   LATER!
 
 

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trisha9054
trisha9054

You are working on the house again. Making it more what will fit you needs for now. The colors sound nice. Working on the house is also working on you. It makes you think about what you want and how your life should be.

I\'m in a holding pattern for now. I\'m not sure what my future will be. I will just roll where ever the wind blows me.

I don\'t have memories on paper. All of mine are in my head. I think paper would be better.
bean22
bean22

Well your posts about organizing always get me going... I finally cleaned my garage after one of your entries!