A quick intro for me :)

I am from Scotland, I've always been alone no friends no parents besides my gran she looked after me after my Mum gave me over to her because of her drug issues the same as my father they would often beat me a lot. My Dad vanished so i never had anyone to do all the fishing, talking manly stuff i was into my Mum would frequently visit my Gran and me and harass her and sometimes strike me, she had somewhat cleaned up her act when i was 17 i was very depressed at that time not as bad as it is now but still bad i would cut myself a lot and never show up for school i never even got a call home because i was that invisible to everyone. I sent a message on my phone to my gran telling her about my suicidal thoughts and my Mum was at home and my Gran must have left her phone at home, my Mum then phoned me telling me to come home then she hit me alot until i was bleeding just for being depressed she called me a bunch of names etc etc.

I did have a dog but it died of cancer within a year of me knowing her, the only really positive part of my life was being with my dog but it died it really hurt me. Around about 18 i started taking dating very seriously (BIG MISTAKE) after all the bad shit that has happened this topped it all, i am a very ugly man i am not fat or nasty i am very kind and polite, rejection after rejection just made everything even worse at this point i just want to be left alone i still enjoy my job and xbox.

Thank you for reading i left out the worse parts so i wouldn't cry reading it sorry for any grammar errors :)