A new month

I found it very hard this month to turn the calendar page.  Another month without my Randy.  Everyone says with time it gets easier, but I'm finding it hard to see time slip away without sharing it with my hubby.  My days go by and by and I think I'm doing okay because I'm surviving then a new month comes by and I'm a basket case.  I guess this is another "wave" as they call them.  I think I need a grandson hug!  They help the most.