A new look at things

I was making my salad today and I put the field greens and bell pepper in and stared at the avocado.  I really wanted to add avocado and catalina dressing, but I knew that the calories would increase, so I walked my sad, dry salad to the table and I got that "diet feeling".  That feeling of being deprived.  That feeling that I will never get to enjoy anything and nothing will ever taste good again.  So, I thought about about my options.  I then decided to take a 1/4 of the avocado and only 1 TB of the dressing to get just a little taste of what I wanted without as many calories.  I know that sounds ridiculous, and I should have thought of it before, but I have NEVER wanted to put a lot of calories on my salads in my past "diet lives", so I always hated the salads.  Then, I would get off the diet, add whatever I wanted to the salad and enjoy them.  I have to come to a place of a "happy medium".  I am such an "all or nothing" person, and in order to lose the weight and keep it off, I have to look at my food options in a new way.