A new feeling...is it life?

 I awoke this morning as usual, yet as the morning progresses, I feel a newness springing up. I having been praying since day one of this fiery journey for God to be glorified in this crippling nightmare. I have seen things that have done so, but that only seemed to touch the surface of my skin, not making it through to my soul. Today, after a week of whispers from God to "be there" for people I was trying to do just that. I helped out where ever I could around here in my " hood" and try to post on social media to other broken moms, what I am led to write. 
 Finally a few days ago, I started to feel it...honest, caring, feeling for someone else. Someone outside of my sphere. I cannot tell you how wonderful that felt. I need to just love on people like a person, not like the robotic person I had become.  I thank you all for being a big part of this healing. Your journeys have helped push me back up the hill and my heartfelt wish is that I could throw each one of you a rope to help pull you up with me...with all the love I hold, Lauri