A New Beginning
Hello My Precious Angel.
Last night mommy held you close to my heart and told you that it was time that mommy started healing and trying to move on. I wanted so bad for you to be there in life so I can hug and kiss you and comfort you. I knew I was asking for the impossible, so instead I hold your urn with your ashes inside. Mommy put all your belongings away as a new start for mommy to begin to heal. I love you so much and I know one day soon, mommy will have a chance to meet you and hold you again. I can't wait for that day, but in the meantime, mommy needs to continue living even though it is difficult to live each day without you. Mommy cannot believe that it's been 4 months since losing you. At times, I just want time to stop, just like mommy wants the pain of losing you to stop. Mommy needs to get emotionally, physcially, and mentally strong again. Mommy needs to build up the courage and strength to decide for your daddy that we need to go our separate ways so that daddy can figure out what he wants in life and if mommy is the one for him. I hope after all of this, that daddy will realize what a good partner mommy has been to daddy all these years and come back to me like in the movie "Jerry Maguire" and have mommy at "Hello." It's been a crazy roller coaster ride these last 4 months my love and it's time for things to get more stable. I will never ever forget you and will hold you dear to my heart but you already know that part of my heart died with you. It will never be the same. Mommy is sending you tons of love and kisses up to heaven for you.
Love you with all mommy's heart and soul.
Mommy
Last night mommy held you close to my heart and told you that it was time that mommy started healing and trying to move on. I wanted so bad for you to be there in life so I can hug and kiss you and comfort you. I knew I was asking for the impossible, so instead I hold your urn with your ashes inside. Mommy put all your belongings away as a new start for mommy to begin to heal. I love you so much and I know one day soon, mommy will have a chance to meet you and hold you again. I can't wait for that day, but in the meantime, mommy needs to continue living even though it is difficult to live each day without you. Mommy cannot believe that it's been 4 months since losing you. At times, I just want time to stop, just like mommy wants the pain of losing you to stop. Mommy needs to get emotionally, physcially, and mentally strong again. Mommy needs to build up the courage and strength to decide for your daddy that we need to go our separate ways so that daddy can figure out what he wants in life and if mommy is the one for him. I hope after all of this, that daddy will realize what a good partner mommy has been to daddy all these years and come back to me like in the movie "Jerry Maguire" and have mommy at "Hello." It's been a crazy roller coaster ride these last 4 months my love and it's time for things to get more stable. I will never ever forget you and will hold you dear to my heart but you already know that part of my heart died with you. It will never be the same. Mommy is sending you tons of love and kisses up to heaven for you.
Love you with all mommy's heart and soul.
Mommy
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