a new day

A new day for me. As I begin this day I think of all the goodness that is at my foot. No need to look down, for When I look up I see the sun, I see the great and wonderful blessings that are at my feet. \I feel I have been on DS for such a long time. Each day has been a healing process for me. I thank all my friends for that. You all have so much to offer. And what a true blessing that is for me. You can make laugh, you can make me rejoice, you can help me gain wisdom. So it helps so much to know I can turn to for anything. And you will be there. If Harry never died I would not of been here on ds. But God led me here to help in my healing. And I am so thankful for God for giving me that special gift of your friendship. When Life says there is only lemons we know this is not true, for there is lemonade and rocking chairs with a friend there to listen.  Going through what I have gone through in the last two weeks. Has changed something inside of me. I don't know what but I feel different. I wander why. But I feel alive. I feel the pain. I feel the happiness. And I feel comfort from head to toe. I wander how that can be. Loosing one of the most special people to me. BUt I feel different. I know it is time to sit down and come up with a plan. On my new life. Part of the fog has been lifted. praise the Lord. As I type this I wander if a breakdown is around the corner. Oh well if it happens it happens. Because you just never can tell. I don't feel the same. I just can't express it. BUt something is different. Could it be the butterfly is growing and ready to break through the cacoon. Who knows. But as God says  Do not fear for I am Lord. So as we begin this day, it is a new day. A new day to explore. There are so many opportunities out there for each and every one don't hide under a rock. God wants us to stand on the rock. And let him be our foundation. The word of the Lord will not crumble or fall. It will be more to us if we let the Lord, in. Today as I read my devotional God reminded me that I am not filled with his desire, his wants, and his ways. How full can I be? Full enough never to know I am full. I mean lets face facts when we go to an all you can eat buffett. We eat and eat and eat til we are full. Then I must say why am not filled with the God's word. Because some times I finishing eating after the aptizer. And say I have enough. But never really see how good it is to have a full glass. But GOd's grace is so incredible. He forgives me and knows me, yet still loves me.  Thank you thank you thank you for your friendship.