A MOMMY DAY!

My little one just wants mommy today, makes me feel loved. She fussing for anyone else. i held her and she curled up next to me and went right to sleep with her hand on my chest. awwww..... i got some sleep last night... whoo hoo!  she fell asleep with me to begin with. but i made myself put her in the crib, and told myself to ignore her grunting, and that she was ok. and finally slept. got up to feed her and put her back and slept again. i feel better. had a bath today, and a friend is coming to visit and we are going to the park with baby and puppy. its a nice day out. might go see another friend too. im exited to get out of the house a bit, to do something other than appointments. i found im not so nervous taking her out if i am the one driving also. should get some good dog training in too. wish i could find my tennis ball. lol. but should be a good day.  on a wierd note, when i was pregnant i found that my arms and legs would go numb... like needles and pins. well, since i had her my right middle finger from halfway up has been numb, and my other fingers as well, but mostly my middle. i wonder if it is from the epidural. i dont know. i hope it will go away, its really annoying!!! and i need that hand to work well. thats the one i use to do my woodburning, once i start again i would like to know if i am burning myself!!!ok, well hope everyone out there has a good day as well!!! love you all. its great to say i can enjoy a day now...i joined DS in october of 2007. for months a good day was like a dream... and a far fetched one. and now, though i may live with my parents right now... i have a bed, i dont sleep on the mattress on a floor, i have 50 bucks to my name, but can make it last.  and i can enjoy simple things like the park. and spending time with friends. im glad to not be caught up in the gambing anymore. im so happy to finally be myself.