a mess this afternoon

I was a mess this afternoon.  Not only over Dave but over the damn toilet.  It was leaking yesterday so my BIL came and put in a new wax ring.  But this morning it was leaking a little on the right side so I tried to tightened that screw and I think I broke it off.  Now it leaks even more when i flush it.  Ugh!!!   Mark is coming over tomorrow to see if he can fix it.

No phone call from Dave again today.  I left early to go see my sister just to get out of here.  I was going crazy.  My feelings for him are driving me crazy.  What can I do?  What is wrong with me?  I know I need to Let Go, Let God.  What will be will be.  And I know it's only been 4 days.

But I've been thinking and I know something happened on that Sunday.  I was over at his place cus he had bought me a chicken dinner and we were talking just like always and even kissed a couple of times.   Later that day coming from my other neighbors place Dave and his daugher and SIL were sitting at the picnic table and he waved me over saying don't be antisocial.  So I went over and sat down.  First time I actual met his daughter, altho I have said HI to her.    I don't remember how long I stayed but I did finally go home.  And later went back over to see Dave.  And that is when his attudute (sp) changed.   How he didn't know what he wanted and how he thought things went a bit fast for us.  And he was confused.   So what happened in those 3 hrs I was not over there?  I just wonder what his daughter & SIL said about me.  I will never know of course cus Dave will never tell me.  If it even happened.  Maybe I'm just looking for a reason for his change which seemed to happened that night.  Everything seemed fine before that.