A long day !
Had a long day today. I worked from 6:30 -1:00. then rushed home to change and drive about 2-3 hour drive to my Mom's, who is in the hospital. Found out this week she has Cancer and other issues. She looked pretty good tonight. If everything goes well tomorrow..She will be moved into a nursing home. She is only 72. but she is on oxygen full time now and shouldn't be left alone. she has fallen twice. this is really going to be hard on her to leave her home of 28 years. My dad passed away 2 years ago, and now she is leaving behind their home. she has two cats that she has taken as her "babies" she isn't going to be able to take them, and that is tearing her apart. It's awful to get old.
I did talk to Eric last night. I'm not sure how to take things. He said he missed me/ voice. But then he started on about my x. I sure wish that he would let go of that. I really do. IF he did, we could really be happy. He chooses to believe some crazy neighbor women in my apartment building, saying I was seeing my x.. WHICH I was not! but they didn't like me because I was the manager and one of them I caught steeling my RX drugs out of my bathroom and called her on it, so now she and this other women, was out to take what is important to me away.. which was ERIC.. I guess they win huh? He believes them, AND he doesn't even know them other then Hi a few times. Crazy huh? It was for the most part, nice to hear his voice. It's really to bad that he just wouldn't wake up and see what a good life he could have with me. But I know it will be HIS loss if he doesn't. But it still hurts that after 2 years and finally coming to a close to bring us together, he gave up. so sad..
This next week I also have to start getting things packed so I can move out of this building. I will be sad to leave this job that I enjoyed, but I will also be happy to get away from these women that has caused trouble in my relationship too. I know Carma will come back on them.
I work tomorrow, then Tuesday night, I think i will go down to my daughters and shampoo the carpet before I move in, then Wed I work, maybe that night move a few boxes, then Thursday spend the day with my MOM ! yeah!!!! Friday , sat, sun work, but I am hoping to get a u-haul truck to move everything on saturday.
What a busy week! BUT with all that going on.. I am still always thinking of Eric. Tomorrow he starts his job. I know he will be fine. I feel that he doesn't need me anymore. Now he'll make friends, and have someone else to talk to. I WILL miss him. I took this 2 years serious with him, and it hurts to know that maybe he didn't, since he could give up so easy. I don't know..
My daughter tried to call ERic and talk to him. She liked him, and just wanted to visit with him about us.. but he didn't answer. He is probably afraid to call her.
Well I guess I better try to get some sleep. It is now 11;15 pm. I again... hope that Eric gets his head on straight and don't loose a good thing with me. I take pride in that.
I did talk to Eric last night. I'm not sure how to take things. He said he missed me/ voice. But then he started on about my x. I sure wish that he would let go of that. I really do. IF he did, we could really be happy. He chooses to believe some crazy neighbor women in my apartment building, saying I was seeing my x.. WHICH I was not! but they didn't like me because I was the manager and one of them I caught steeling my RX drugs out of my bathroom and called her on it, so now she and this other women, was out to take what is important to me away.. which was ERIC.. I guess they win huh? He believes them, AND he doesn't even know them other then Hi a few times. Crazy huh? It was for the most part, nice to hear his voice. It's really to bad that he just wouldn't wake up and see what a good life he could have with me. But I know it will be HIS loss if he doesn't. But it still hurts that after 2 years and finally coming to a close to bring us together, he gave up. so sad..
This next week I also have to start getting things packed so I can move out of this building. I will be sad to leave this job that I enjoyed, but I will also be happy to get away from these women that has caused trouble in my relationship too. I know Carma will come back on them.
I work tomorrow, then Tuesday night, I think i will go down to my daughters and shampoo the carpet before I move in, then Wed I work, maybe that night move a few boxes, then Thursday spend the day with my MOM ! yeah!!!! Friday , sat, sun work, but I am hoping to get a u-haul truck to move everything on saturday.
What a busy week! BUT with all that going on.. I am still always thinking of Eric. Tomorrow he starts his job. I know he will be fine. I feel that he doesn't need me anymore. Now he'll make friends, and have someone else to talk to. I WILL miss him. I took this 2 years serious with him, and it hurts to know that maybe he didn't, since he could give up so easy. I don't know..
My daughter tried to call ERic and talk to him. She liked him, and just wanted to visit with him about us.. but he didn't answer. He is probably afraid to call her.
Well I guess I better try to get some sleep. It is now 11;15 pm. I again... hope that Eric gets his head on straight and don't loose a good thing with me. I take pride in that.
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