A little sunshine

Yesterday was so horrible I decided to treat myself to a meal out. There is a little restaurant /pub on my street that I walk to sometimes. I sat at the bar alone as usual but the bartender started flirting with me! I was stunned. Then he told me to sit on the other side of the bar so he wouldn't have to walk all the way around, there were other regulars there and we all got to talking and laughing. It felt like a real life all of a sudden. I'm so isolated here I couldn't believe how just getting to relaxe and laugh and be flirted with just lifted my spirts like nothing else. Of course he's only 28 and I'm not going there! But... it was nice. And made me wake up with a smile this morning. Maybe I'm not a freak!

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you are not a freak! its awesome when a moment makes you see that its really not as bad as it seems. last nite i decided to stop what i always do, and that\'s smoothing over the bad and remembering things that are good and most likely better in my mind than they really were.
you know, theres all this emotional attatchment, and familiarity with the ex. all these special moments. theyre hard to detatch yourself from, but ive decided that my ex will not be the only one who will teach me about love. he taught me what not to accept, how to spot a user, and what ill deal with in a relationship. not to say we didnt have good moments, but if he\'s wishy washy and cant love me in his soul then i dont need him. and that makes me eager for the one who will teach me the great things about love. he\'s out there and until then im going to obcess over me and love me and heal from the hurt ive had so that im a stronger, better person. just because my ex was to blind to see what awesomeness he had with me, then thats his problem. im not wasting anymore time trying to make him see. i think you should do the same. your ex is an idiot and does not deserve you. there will be lots of men who flirt. enjoy it, you\'re pretty, you should!

i know that we are going to be better women because of what weve been through. we\'ll one day look back and know we\'re better off.

have a great weekend!
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LOL. Age is just a number. Good for you. I can\'t tell when girls flirt (if they do) with me. See, live is what you make it. Don\'t be isolated. We\'re all here for you. Try Meetup.com or stuff to get out more.
Hang in there!
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That is a great story shantellew. It\'s encouraging. It shows you can feel better given appropriate stimulation. :) Hope you have a good weekend.
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