a little overwhelmed

days off are not always a good thing for me. thought i was gonna get to see her in the a.m. but didnt work out. so i finally spoke up and said what the hell do u want. she said likes me but doesnt think its fair cause she doesnt have much time and she wants spend most of it at gym. i was honest and said make up her mind she either wants this or not. she said she does just scared about lack of time. i said its bullshit if she wants it to work needs to make time and include me when we both have the time. so im not sure. thinking im half on fence half off. had bullshit day cause gas man came by to shut gas off, the dr never called with my biopsy results then i sat around like an ass for hours waiting for straight answer on my day off. so enough is enough. then my exhusband went crazy cause issues with my daughter and step daughter so ended up leaving house cause he was coming over all crazy. ended up going over when he calmed down so he could talk things over with her. but i stayed outside incase got ugly. he said i had no rights cause he has legal custody so i left . my daughter stood up for me and he ended up appologizing to me for first time in many many years of abuse. im tired.