a little hug

Hello everyone,
When I first came to DS almost 2 years ago so many people were on this site that I became good friends with.  I know that part of the grief process is to gradually move on.  A lot of people have done that. I wish them the very best. I had one friend who messaged me after her husband died that she was leaving this cancer world but wanted to thank me for being her friend.  I thought that was very nice. 
That is my goal to give encouragement to others and I intend to continue to pray and minister to those who want me to.  This site has been a very real help to me and I know to those who continue to battle. 
We saw the doctor for blood work yesterday and Steve is doing good.  He had a rough month of Sutent last cycle.  His feet became so sore that he could barely walk. Bedroom shoes to church, etc.  Don't quite understand the why of it, some months no soreness and the next cycle really bad.  But he knows he is blessed to know it is still working.  Oh did I mention ill as a bear?
I take it in stride and not let the hurtful words rain on me.  I know he does not mean them.  I can be like a mother bear in the woods when I get a high blood sugar so we are even on that score. Oh the laughs and tears of a 45 year marriage. Oh and how I have cried those tears in the past 13 years. Cancer sucks and all that goes with it.
I know I am blessed, when I think of so many who have lost their mates since I joined this site.  Way too  many to list,  I love you all. 
Till next time, hugs to everyone!
Wanda in NC