a little down

Well last night I went and celebrated the engagement of two of our close friends, surrounded by wonderful friends and family, I honestly enjoyed myself. I just sat on the lounges provided and had people chatting with me and of course worrying over me, making sure I was alright and comfterble. I was in abit of pain but I was happy to be out and surrounded by wonderful people. Also, I'm a bridesmaid, I felt it my duty to be apart of the celebrations!
I am so sore today and so tired...I keep bleeding so much, Im wearing 2 super pads changing 4  sometimes 5 times a day and thats when it's FULL. I'm taking my pain killers and I'm just exhausted. I want this to end - why is it getting worse =( Mum says the hystoscopy would cause bleeding and the D&C and the operative lap itself.. I dunno exactly what was done I need to wait for my post op, but my spirits are low, just looking at the pictures makes me depressed - it's worsened so much.
I'm so glad I have wonderful people around me. I keep thinking, I need to be thankful for everything I DO have! Because everyone has down bits in life, we all have trials, we need to be thankful for the good and I deffinately have good.
Jase has been so wonderful, he's been cleaning and last night he had 2 drinks that was it, he drank coke the rest of the night and sat by my side, making sure I was ok. He was so supportive!! He's been amazing.. he's worried about me. But you know what I am so thankful and so blessed to have him in my life. He is AMAZING!
 
I'm going to keep my chin up, I am down.. but I am healing - there are good things, amazing things in life, even with the down present.. I need to be thankful for all I do have - even when it's hard to be.
 
XO

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi sweetie im so glad you got to go out i know you were looking forward to it... if the bleeding continues call the doc, thats a lot of blood my dear. Im so glad Jase is so supportive fo you, youre a wonderful girl and if you need to talk im here.... my fingers are crossed for some good news and if not my arms are open to hug you if you need that too... love ya xoxoxo
thatotherchick
thatotherchick

aww...i\'m sorry you\'re so down right now...but, we do all go through this when a treatment doesn\'t work or we learn that it\'s gotten worse. you are an awesome person and i know you\'ll pull out of this! until then tho, feel free to lean on me and i\'ll always be here for you! just try and rest and keep your feet up...i agree with rebel that it does seem to be a lot of bleeding. i\'m just glad that you have someone wonderful there to help you through this too! hugs and love always~
taters90
taters90

Thanks ladies! Both my mum and Jases mum think I should ring the doctor tomorrow or the nurse at the doctors office and ask if I should see the doctor early, They think I\'m bleeding too much. I\'ve gone through 16 pads (super pads, the thick ones) since Friday afternoon. It seems to be getting heavier. I\'m not due for my period, I finished it just before I went to Bali. I\'ll see how I am tomorrow and call the nurse.
Thankyou so much for your support. Love you both =) you\'re amazing women! *big hugs!*
XOXOX