A little better today.

I have taken care of a lot of things this week. I have been tested for HIV and STD's and all the results are NEGATIVE!! I had my first theapy session yesterday. I really like my therapist so far. I hope to get myself together. These are all things my BH has asked me to do. I was going to do them anyway for his sake. I am preparing myself legally and financially for the worst, that is my BH won't work on our marraige. I am still terrified of losing him but it was a little less frightening today. I have never been alone...My worry today is that I am not strong enough to fight for our marriage and by that I don't mean the temptation of the OM but the strength to endure his anger and pain. I pray that GOD gives me strength.