A little better

Well im still mad pissed upset and hurt but im not teh little ball of fire I have been latley. I started AF Saturday and it was actually a a relief because i knew i wasnt pregnant and i guess i could look forward to this cycle. Im taking a few steps back and just doing clomid this month. It was this cycle a year ago that i got pregnant last time so we will see. I really going to try not to let it ruin myholidays and i think i will be able to pull it off. Our aniversary is next month and I would love to be pregnant for it!!! We will see. Im still not very happy with God right now and dont know if that will change anytime soon. But in not hating life as much as I have been.