A Letter To My Ex

A Letter To My Ex Boyfriend

For the past month, I have been so angry. Not consciously, but I felt angry and anxious and feeling like I needed an answer. Why was this happening? Why did I feel so bad? Why did I feel like I did something wrong, when in reality I didn’t. I removed my self from a situation that wasn’t good for me. I was strong enough to let you go. One day, today, I woke up and I didn’t feel angry. I didn’t feel angry because I realized the reason you did the things you did wasn’t because of me, it had nothing to do with the fact that you seriously hated me or when I would do things without you. You needed constant validation. That is how I felt this past month, but today… I didn’t feel this way. I woke up, and realized I am not angry. It wasn’t my fault, and everyone has issues deep underneath. I guess putting the problems on me helped you feel better. Think about your step dad.. How many times did he make you feel like you weren’t good enough? Like you weren’t making your mother proud? Like you were going to fail school? Like you were the problem in that family? When in reality he was the problem and was enabling everyone else addictions and problems. He should have been the one who takes care of you and helps you grow. Not belittles you and makes you feel like you’re a pot head who is just going to grow up just like his son. We both know you won’t. You’re hard working, driven, try hard, handsome, and have a good heart. You’re a good person, you just weren’t good for me. I know that this isn’t my fault. You will grow up and I hope to god you find someone to love that you two can treat each other amazing. For now, I have realized I need to work on my self and meet new people. I need to get involved with more social things. I was never trying to make you hurt or give you pain. I felt so much pain myself and I’m slowly healing. All I know is that you have been through what I am going through right now. I was scared to see you because I have so much pain in my heart. But I know that we can never get back together and I hope you know that. We are both great people and know how to love. I know I didn’t owe you an explanation, But here is one. I hope you can be happy and focus on yourself and if you do that, and become fully happy with yourself, not feeling like you need someones approval or validation, then you will be happy I know you will.  Maybe in the future, we can be friends. But not right now. I can’t handle it and I don’t think you can either, and I seriously wish your whole family happiness and love. I hope that you, tiffany, and ashley can grow and be happy with someone you love!