A letter to my aunt.

I have this secret that i have been holding back for a long time. I've had this secret sense i was a young child . Sense i was 7 years old. The secret is dark. and surprising. But i have to tell you. No one in this family knows about it. Not even my mom.. Sue knows and Danielle knows too, and so does my therapist and those are the only people besides people online that i have told this dark secret too. I am going to try to say this is easy as i possibly can, but, its going to be hard because you might not believe me and that will hurt a lot. because it happens so long ago. But. I was sexually abused. You want to know who did it? My sister. My SISTER sexually abused me until i was 11 or 12....I know that this was a long time ago, but i cant keep this secret to myself anymore. Im telling you because i trust you and i think you should know. It's really screwed me up and i go to therapy for it. It's hard LIVING with her. Extremely hard. It happened a lot. I didnt even know exactly what was happening when it did. I was a confused little girl with no idea what was going on and when i got older i finally figured out that it wasn't right what was happening. Id try to go back into my room and she would end up getting mad at me and she scared me ALL THE TIME. I repressed it when i was 13 and just went on with my life like nothing ever happened. But now it came back out these last couple of years and its been EXTREMELY hard for me to deal with sense i live with her. I feel so messed up all the time and i am always so angry with her. I dont even think she remembers what she did, But i know i do, and its painful. She not only did that to me, but she would also lock me in my closet for a few minuets and leave the room and she would put her hand over my mouth sometimes too. Im sorry if this is to much information all at once to take in and you dont have to believe me, but i KNOW what happened and i wouldnt lie about something as painful as this. Please try not to tell my mom., i just dont want her to know and have it get back to my sister. I know this is hard thing to keep secret, but please dont tell her. I dont want my sister to hurt me or something if she found out that i told somebody about it, because she still really scares me. I just felt like you should know. Please dont be mad at me. Thank you for listening, I love you auntie.
Love Leah