A horrible dream
I am usually fairly calm and optimistic about most things. I don't get really worked up over much and things that bother most people (like speaking in front of large crowds, giving presentations, taking tough exams, etc.) have never bothered me. But sometimes my subconscious surprises me and I'll have terrible dreams about something big that's upcoming.
I am in charge of a scholarship pageant for young women. I have been for 9 years now and with an excellent committee, this event is usually pulled off quite successfully even with the ever-present bumps in the road. But about a week before the event each winter, I have "pageant dreams" where everything goes horribly wrong and I lose all control. It happens every year even though I feel pretty good (or so I think) about how everything is coming together for the big night.
Now my "pageant dreams" have manifested themselves in "ultrasound dreams". Although I am fully aware something bad can still happen, I feel really good about this pregnancy. I feel much better physically now that I'm not on the PIO shots anymore, I am eating well, sleeping a lot to keep up with the exhaustion, and overall I'm really happy. But somewhere deep down I must be freaking out about the ultrasound. Last night's dreams were that there was nothing on the screen, and they told me my progesterone levels had dropped too much to maintain the pregnancy and I would lose it/them. In my dream, I was crying and asking them why in the world I only had one beta then, and why didn't they bring me in for another beta to monitor the hormones before just telling me to quit doing the shots?! It was just awful!
I woke up thinking I can't believe I still have to wait seven more days to get that confirmation that my baby(ies?) has developed from a sesame seed into a lentil and finally into a blueberry by the time the ultrasound takes place. I'm sure everything will be fine but seven days feels like another eternity to wait. And that's eight more nights of possible "pageant dreams"! Ahhh!!! No one ever warned me about all of these crazy side effects. :)
I keep my faith in the Lord... now if I could just place my concerns fully into His hands and let it go... God is great!
I am in charge of a scholarship pageant for young women. I have been for 9 years now and with an excellent committee, this event is usually pulled off quite successfully even with the ever-present bumps in the road. But about a week before the event each winter, I have "pageant dreams" where everything goes horribly wrong and I lose all control. It happens every year even though I feel pretty good (or so I think) about how everything is coming together for the big night.
Now my "pageant dreams" have manifested themselves in "ultrasound dreams". Although I am fully aware something bad can still happen, I feel really good about this pregnancy. I feel much better physically now that I'm not on the PIO shots anymore, I am eating well, sleeping a lot to keep up with the exhaustion, and overall I'm really happy. But somewhere deep down I must be freaking out about the ultrasound. Last night's dreams were that there was nothing on the screen, and they told me my progesterone levels had dropped too much to maintain the pregnancy and I would lose it/them. In my dream, I was crying and asking them why in the world I only had one beta then, and why didn't they bring me in for another beta to monitor the hormones before just telling me to quit doing the shots?! It was just awful!
I woke up thinking I can't believe I still have to wait seven more days to get that confirmation that my baby(ies?) has developed from a sesame seed into a lentil and finally into a blueberry by the time the ultrasound takes place. I'm sure everything will be fine but seven days feels like another eternity to wait. And that's eight more nights of possible "pageant dreams"! Ahhh!!! No one ever warned me about all of these crazy side effects. :)
I keep my faith in the Lord... now if I could just place my concerns fully into His hands and let it go... God is great!
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I am with you on the vivid dreams, I went to the hospital to get another beta this morning, I wasn\'t supposed to get one but I was so anxious over the weekend that I just went up and chanced my luck. I went for a 3 hour nap in the afternoon and had a crazy dream about my beta numbers, they kept calling me about them but were unable to read the number, then the phone kept cutting out , I woke up so distressed. Is there no way you could get another beta before your scan to put your mind at ease?
I have those same kinds of dreams. I\'m taking a home pregnancy test, but my eyes are blurry and I can\'t see the result. I also have every single textbook anxiety dream including, being in a play production and not knowing my lines, at the airport for a trip and not having my luggage, having a math test in high school and not remotely remembering any calculus, and being naked in various public places. I\'ve been cycling through the lot of them lately, in all kinds of permutations. Last night I was in a play, naked and not knowing my lines!
Big hugs to make the days go by quickly
I ca understand why you\'d have such dreams. It took a lot for you to get where you are and deserve it. Continue to be positive,take care of your lentils and I am sure everything will be fine. Happy day okay?
Tracy
p.s
Friday is my big injection day and my birthday and we are moving...crazy life we live!!!
right after I found out I was pregnant I started having this dream that something really heavy was on top of me and I could not move. I had a burried alive kinda feeling, I never remember my dreams. I hear crazy dreams may have to do with pregnancy so it might be a good thing your dreaming so much ;) keep on thinking positive
I believe the babies are fine too. Just trust and leave that feeling with the Lord and when you feel those feeling say a prayer. Get the book call Supernatural Childbirth by Jackie Mize. You can purchase cheap on Amazon. There are prayers and principles that relate to you now that you are pregnant. I believe in my heart this book will give you the additional daily strength you need. Blessings to you and your family. Thank God for your journey!!