a heavy heart...

I woke up this moment at around 7:30 am and couldn't go back to sleep. My mind immediately went to wanting to be a mom. I should be with my baby, I should be enjoying my kids on a Saturday morning. The feeling quickly went to sadness, anger, and then frustration because once again I can't do anything about my situation but pray and cry and get over it!! I am so very tired of this journey. It's such an intense feeling. Its even more intense when I am alone. Then, I have to yell and scream and there is no way I can call anyone because they don't get it. And once again I have to tell myself, think of your blessings, and get over it because I can't let this steal my joy or day away. I just needed to vent these feelings.