A GIFT OF TIME.......
With all that continues to go on... the drama and worry about getting through this divorce.....the feeling of often allowing myself to get swept up and feeling unappreciated and taken advantage of at work.... I am feeling very unsettled.
I do try my damnedest to reach out and share and do for others. I know how very hard it is to be at that point to just need someone to care... and ,no matter what, I always will. But there are many in my life who are aware how to manipulate and simply continue to want and take whatever they can get.
Someone did recently remind me to extend myself the same courtesy I do others. And I do thank him for that. Right now, it often feels like walls are closing in. I have this incredible urge to just journey away from everything (especially the users) for a week... hell, even a few days. I am finding a need to just go and find somewhere to possibly just think, hang out and chill. I just need SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO before all is said and done. I will finally have my freedom, but will be back in the normal struggle of working endlessly and settling into a hum drum existence.
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Life is never easy, its a series of challenges each and every day. This is how we grow in knowledge. Knowledge is power, remember it is the doing that is more important than the knowing.. Remember the world cares little about our knowledge it grants rewards in proportion to what we do. Or can get others to do. Hang in there....:-)
Kim, please know your value is important and you are important. You give which shows clearly, that’s all we can do in life. Divorce is tough choices so be gentle with yourself so you keep a clear head on the decisions that lay ahead. Knowing we’ve done our best and tried very hard to do no harm is small payment but it’s enough. Yes you do need some quiet time soon to just be still and let the waters flow around and past you. You’re worth it my friend and if you were in Oregon I would suggest going here,
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The stars look marvelous while soaking in the wooden tub about one in the morning.
Alone time can be very beneficial when you are seeking clarity and a path, I think if you are feeling the urge to do so you need to listen to yourself and do that.
Kim ,
It is admirable that you do unto others as you would have them do unto you .
I applaud you and pray things get better .
♥Beth
Having something to look forward to is a huge thing. Gives us hope.
Hugs
Even if you just take a single day to get away from everyone. Go to the mall or get lost in the local forest :) Once you get to that "hum drum" existence you will be happy for it! It can be boring without the drama but I will take boring over madness any day of the week! You are on the right path my friend...stay strong and better days are waiting :)
Just catching up today with the site so I hope I didn’t make too many waves. I really get wanting to look ahead with faith of a better future. You all seem so good and clear that I can’t imagine karma would allow anything but. I’ve recently been blessed with lots of alone time. Serious soul searching. I’m glad I found myself again after all this time but I’m really getting lonely so that hum drum stuff is sounding pretty good. Doesn’t mean you can’t still smell the roses along the way. I hope you will always know yourself whatever the future holds