a fresh beginning
I'm Heidi And I survived. I survived the phisical pain, I lived happy with my newfound sence of strength. I learned that there are things in the wold that are worse things to be than me. I caught a very bad disease that cused me nothing but pain, and I did it without a single pill, all allone on Christmas. I was sick, devistated I would miss christmas. Or be in pain for the rest of my life. But I dealt with my pain. I dealt with it, and I feel it copnstantly. But when I set a goal, to live clean. And survive, I know I will only have to do that once.I am going to be what I am going to be. That is a clean recovering addict, and I used nothing to help my pain, or easy my psyciatric symptoms, even live a entirely healthy lifestyle now. So look for the changes and try to keep up. I will do what must be done to survive, because I finally reached all of my goals.