A emotional day
It has been an emotional day. It started with an urban walk. It was chilly but the sun came out and it was quite lovely along the river and in the bird sanctuary. We stopped to view a photography exhibition (Joe's favorite part). I felt quite upbeat and peaceful.
When I got home, I fell in to a blue funk. I started to think about how blessed my life has been. We have had a charmed life, and until Lisa died, I felt I was one of the luckiest people in the world. How quickly things change.
I feel angry that we can enjoy ourselves as senior citizens and Lisa will never be even 40 (my favourite birthday). I feel angry that Harvey no longer has the debts and mortgage that Lisa worried so much about - her insurance paid off the mortgage and he is now earning a lot of bonuses. The unfairness of it all is just crappy.
I am upset because I want to be able to call Lisa like I always did - but I can't. I am frustrated because when the phone rings, I want it to be Lisa but it isn't. I am furious. Cevyn should have her wonderful mother to guide her - but doesn't. I am sad that Andrew became friends with his sister in the last few years - and now she is gone.
My Sweet Caring Lisa: You have no idea how much I miss you and long to hear your voice and your infectious laugh. I miss giving you a hug and telling you I love you and hearing you say "I love you too Mummy". I look forward to the day we meet again so that we can catch up on the gossip and give each other hugs.
I miss you always and love you forever. Mummy
When I got home, I fell in to a blue funk. I started to think about how blessed my life has been. We have had a charmed life, and until Lisa died, I felt I was one of the luckiest people in the world. How quickly things change.
I feel angry that we can enjoy ourselves as senior citizens and Lisa will never be even 40 (my favourite birthday). I feel angry that Harvey no longer has the debts and mortgage that Lisa worried so much about - her insurance paid off the mortgage and he is now earning a lot of bonuses. The unfairness of it all is just crappy.
I am upset because I want to be able to call Lisa like I always did - but I can't. I am frustrated because when the phone rings, I want it to be Lisa but it isn't. I am furious. Cevyn should have her wonderful mother to guide her - but doesn't. I am sad that Andrew became friends with his sister in the last few years - and now she is gone.
My Sweet Caring Lisa: You have no idea how much I miss you and long to hear your voice and your infectious laugh. I miss giving you a hug and telling you I love you and hearing you say "I love you too Mummy". I look forward to the day we meet again so that we can catch up on the gossip and give each other hugs.
I miss you always and love you forever. Mummy
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