A Decent Day

I spent the day visiting with my Mom and playing with DS. Anxiety level was low and not in a hazy fog of depression. Definitely helped getting out of the house today. I live in terror of what I will feel like tomorrow. The new meds still don't seem to be working even though it's been almost 7 weeks. Having a hard time falling asleep tonight even though DS will be up bright and early. I do my best to at least fake my way through the day. It isn't his fault I feel this way. Would be nice if maybe I'm starting to feel better. 10 LONG days without my period has me and DH concerned. Not sure I could go through another loss. Or quit my meds and struggle through the pregnancy and with a toddler. I need to take a test but if it's positive it will be terrifying. You would think with PCOS and condoms something like this would be nearly impossible, but crazier shit has happened. Don't think I've ever wanted my period so bad before. Fingers crossed for AF and another good day tomorrow.