A Day Of Fake \" Niceness \".... Better than the Opposite I suppose

Today's been an " Okay " Day, over all I'd say. At least My Bf and I haven't argued about anything Today. That's a Relief for a change, since lately it's seemed that it's all He ever wants to do. I've done My Part as far as " Keeping the Peace " goes, and I've kept My Feelings completely to Myself Today. Even though there really have been MANY things I would LOVE to talk to Him about, I didn't. I knew IF I dared to that it would inevitably start a HUGE arguement !Late Last Night when I figured He was Calm enough to have a Serious Conversation, I asked Him a couple of things about " US ". But because of the Reaction I got right away from my questions, I didn't press Him for answers. I dropped the Topic right away, instead. I figured it was better to drop it, than to try to force Him to answer Me when I know that instead of staying calm, and answering Me, He would end up flying into a RAGE instead. Lately His RAGE seems to be His fall back for avoiding ANYTHING that should be dealt with.... any serious topic concerning Our Relationship.... and / or " US " in any way at all. He knows that at the First Sign that He's going to get ANGRY, I'll drop whatever I was trying to talk to Him about. The Very Twisted Part to this is that sometimes it doesn't even take pressing Him for Answers to Questions for Him to start getting worked up, and completely lose His Temper. Sometimes it's even BARELY mentioning a certain Topic that will cause Him to COMPLETELY EXPLODE IN RAGE AT ME !!!!! The thing is I NEVER truly know WHICH TOPICS will create that result.As You can imagine, that makes carrying on a " Normal " conversation VERY DIFFICULT with Him. Basically, to Talk to Him and NOT have a RAGING FIT result, I HAVE TO simply AGREE with ANYTHING HE'S SAYING.... NO MATTER WHAT IT IS !!!! NUTS ? HUH ?? YES ! I know it is.... That's just how Difficult it is to Live with Him. It's a " Crap Shoot " EVERY DAY.... NEVER REALLY KNOWING WHAT KIND OF DAY IT WILL BE WITH HIM !!!!I've TRIED many... many... Times to talk to Him about His Behaviour.BUT, there's No Talking to Him about it. Just recently, in fact, I told Him that I've offered in the Past to make a Few Phone Calls to get Him signed up for the Medical Insurance He'd need to get some Help..... AND that I would STILL do that, IF He wants Me to ! BUT... His Reply was to get ANGRY at Me, and SWEAR that I've NEVER OFFERED to do that ! PLUS... He quickly pushed aside My Offer to still make a Few Calls. So it seems that He doesn't want to get Help.... and as ALL of You know, it's Up to Him to make that Decision... I can't make Him.Well, I've got to go for now... He's back from His " Walk ", and I'm sure that soon enough He'll be " INSISTING " that I get OFFLINE so HE can get on Here ! It's MY COMPUTER.... but that doesn't matter a bit to Him... Double-Standards are typical of Him.IF ONLY the SLUTS that He Chats with ONLINE truly knew the REAL RAY.ALL they know is WHO He PRETENDS to be while He's FLIRTING WITH THEM, AND telling Them EVERYTHING They Want to Hear !