a day in the life

i havent been on here in a bit. but theres really nothing new. just trying to find a new job. i talked to my friend rachel yesterday about stuff, and i decided to make a list of positive affirmations and also i printed out a list of bible verses stating who i am in christ. i didnt go to celebrate recovery last night because i had a skype date with this guy i met on eharmony. it went well, but idk if im gonna continue talking to him because i have to get my ducks in a row. and i didnt take my medicine last night because i am having some issues with it, so i woke up feeling the worst. :( i guess i need to be on this medicine even though i feel like it makes my whole body as stiff as a board. im gonna be seeing my old counselor again Stacey. my new one is just really not helping. Stacey really helped me. but im gonna make new goals for therapy and what i want to see changed. lets see, then theres other people in my life such as my friend James. I really dont think he should be in my life right now though, and other people, just a lot of guy friends and its too much sometimes. because i am NOT their girlfriend. you know? ugh. but a bunch of them i talk to regularly. and to me thats a problem. I need to take a break from talking to them right now. im reading this book for small group called Goliath must fall and its about "giants" in our lives that control us. and i know that fear/anxiety is one of them and this guy addiction can be one of them too.