A Cycle

It's like a cycle, I have a few good days, then i crash, crying for a whole day then shaking the next, then a few good days. I don't know if i am pushing things down too much, then i just overload or what. I try so hard to be strong for the boys and everyone, I know i should probably take more time for me but i just don't know how to do it and it hurts so bad to feel it. I feel like i am caught in a tug of war with my head saying you have to go through this and my heart saying i just can't. Any way today is a good day so i better go make the best of it with the boys. Hoping you all are having a good day/weekend also.